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and didn’t think about you at all, I realized I stopped loving you. And let you go.

makes me realize how much I’ve grown to resent you.

(Source: thesolodolo)

I think I am very smart, but wow, sometimes I am amazed at how stupid I am, let me tell you!! This is the SECOND time a boy I have dated has led me to believe that I am crazy, when I am completely justified in the way I feel. Yes, true, I am much more manic than other girls, but I am starting to believe that it is because they are so weak. They will LET their boyfriends lie to them time and time again, be sad about it, but continue to take it! Yet, I am the crazy one because I start fights and accuse my (ex) boyfriend of lying when I have absolutely every reason to! UNBELIEVABLE!

I am not here to take somebody’s shit and be mistreated. These boys make the mistake of thinking I will be here and forgive them every time, but they are wrong.

I do realize that in any relationship, I will come out looking like the bad guy because I am the one making noise and causing a huge scene. Not to mention, these boys are always cowards - never admit to wrong doing. Their excuses are always, “I forgot” or “I just didn’t think about it.” Fine, I’ll take it looking like my fault. So be it then! At least I am not giving up my integrity or settling for something that I don’t deserve.

Always so concerned with how I found out. Do you really want to know? It’s because I’m smarter than you and know how to utilize the resources available to me to find out what I want to know. THAT’S HOW. But why do you care? Shouldn’t you be much more concerned about being sorry??? Plus, I told you last time, if you lie to me, I will find out! SO DUMB. People assume I’m some sort of moron, but please, take a look at what I have accomplished in so few years and tell me that someone stupid could have done the same.

And moreover who knows what else you have lied to me about that I just happened to not catch? So let me try to understand this, you can lie to me about all the drugs you do and that’s completely OK, but when I even do anything without telling you first, I get yelled at and have to change immediately? Oh, please, DO LET ME APOLOGIZE. So sorry for wanting something better for us than for you do sit on your ass all day and smoke weed/do cocaine. I am SO illogical. So let me do you a fucking favor and dump you so we can both start doing whatever the hell we want again!

And for the record, I am disappointed in this fraternity and its members because this applies to many (not me at all because I am certainly not sober). You find a nice girl who doesn’t want you to do drugs, so instead you do them behind her back, right? You should be damn grateful if she knows and stays with your lying, loser ass. Tell me what kind of person that makes you to lie to someone that has been nothing but good to you.

I realize that I will probably delete this post later, but I just had to say it. God knows I can’t tell any of my friends because they’re your friends, too and you have this amazing way of spinning stories so you always look innocent. I ONLY have the consolation of knowing that my pledge sister knows what I lying, manipulative ass you are.